lcionline Chapter 465 Contradictions and Struggles
Chapter 465 Contradictions and Struggles
At this moment, he was eager for his mother to wake up, but also afraid of this moment. If his mother really woke up, he didn't know how to face it.
Baili Yan often wondered why he was not his mother's child, not a real prince. If that was the case, why did she tell him those painful secrets?
He clenched his fists, digging his nails into his palms until blood oozed out, but he was unaware. Suddenly, he turned and left the room.
Concubine Xian on the bed moved her fingers slightly. She was actually awake and wanted to open her eyes to look at him, but her body would not obey her.
In her heart, although Yan'er was not her biological child, she had already treated him as her own after years of raising him. Yan'er was her child. Hearing Yan'er's words, she knew that he must be in pain, and her heart ached. Tears could not help but fall, soaking the pillow.
Baili Yan walked out of the door, took a few deep breaths, and tried to calm his inner turmoil.
Every time he came to visit Empress Xian, his heart would become heavy. After a long sigh, he looked around and felt that something was missing - the old nanny was gone.
In the past, whenever I came to visit my mother, the old lady was always there to serve her, never far away. But today, she was nowhere to be found. Where did the old lady go? Baili Yan was suspicious and felt vaguely uneasy.
He asked a palace maid and learned that the old nanny had gone out of the palace on business.
"Leaving the palace?" The old lady who was extremely loyal to his mother would actually leave at this time, which made him even more confused. What on earth had happened that forced her to leave the palace at this moment?
Just then, the old nanny hurried back to the palace and ran into Baili Yan.
"Greetings, Your Highness." The old nanny bowed respectfully.
"Where have you been? Don't you know how critical your mother's condition is now? If something happens during this period, how will you explain it?" Baili Yan's voice was cold.
The old nanny was unaware of His Highness' dissatisfaction and was only thinking about telling him the good news that the Queen had woken up.
"Your Highness, I am going to deliver something outside the palace."
"Send something? To whom?" Baili Yan asked.
"To Miss Aliang." When the name was mentioned, the old nanny's face was slightly embarrassed and a little nervous. Your Highness should not know about Miss Aliang, and it would be best if he never knew.
"Because the queen received help from Miss Aliang before, she asked me to bring a gift of thanks."
The old nanny hurriedly changed the subject: "By the way, Your Highness, the Queen just woke up."
Baili Yan's head was buzzing and his thoughts were confused for a moment.
Aliang! This name evoked some memories in his heart, but before he could think about it, he was interrupted by the old lady's words.
Baili Yan's face turned pale, his hands tightly grasped his sleeves, and he trembled slightly. When he heard the old nanny say that his mother had woken up and ordered the things to be sent to Aliang, he was filled with doubts and uneasiness. Was his mother going to reveal his life experience?
Baili Yan's face became even uglier, and he almost couldn't stand steadily. Seeing this, the old nanny hurried forward to support him: "Your Highness, what's wrong with you? Are you feeling unwell?"
Baili Yan was stunned for a moment, then shook his head to indicate that everything was fine: "I...I want to go see my mother."
He managed to keep his pace steady and walked towards his mother's room. The old nanny looked at his staggering figure, feeling distressed - it turned out that His Highness missed the Queen so much.
Walking into the house, Baili Yan saw his mother lying there quietly, as if she was still sleeping.
Countless questions surged in his mind, but he couldn't say a word. Why did his mother send something to Aliang? Did they recognize each other? Or did his mother have other plans?
Baili Yan felt unprecedented fear when he thought that his secret might be exposed. He was afraid and deeply disappointed. It seemed that his mother only had the abandoned daughter in her heart, and he seemed to be forgotten in the corner.
Baili Yan clenched his fists and a trace of resentment flashed in his eyes.
He slammed the door next to him, his voice filled with anger and confusion: "Why? Since you brought me back to the palace, you should only recognize me as your only son. Why are you still thinking about that abandoned child?"
He slowly approached the bed, his tone mixed with grievance and confusion: "Mother, what did I do wrong? Why are you still thinking about your biological daughter?"
Baili Yan's emotions were complicated and he was almost incoherent. Suddenly, Shen Yuming's words came to his mind - in order to keep the secret, all insiders must be eliminated.
He hesitated and missed many opportunities, and now all of this has become a heavy burden on his mind.
Looking at his haggard mother on the bed, Baili Yan's eyes gradually turned cold. He gently held his mother's cold hand and whispered, "Mother, I don't want you to suffer anymore. Let me help you end this, okay?"
Although the person on the bed did not respond, Baili Yan had already made a decision in his heart. In order to protect his secret, he was ready to take action.
He stood up slowly, remembering that there was a bottle of poison hidden on the bookshelf in the next room - that was what he had prepared.
Baili Yan turned and left the room. When his footsteps faded away, Concubine Xian gently opened her eyes, her eyes full of pain. She had listened to every word of what he had just said.
She didn't expect that Yan'er's inner pain was so deep. It was her negligence that failed to understand his heart. He could have lived a carefree life, but because of her selfishness, he was involved in the disputes in the palace. She owed him too much.
Tears slid down quietly, and Empress Xian reached under the pillow with trembling hands, took out an oil-paper package, and slowly unfolded it.
"Yan'er, after your mother leaves, you must live well."
She said softly, her voice weak. She opened the paper package, which contained the poison carefully prepared by Doctor Tao. This time, whether Doctor Tao was present or not, it was irreversible.
Empress Xian stared at the poison without any fear in her eyes, instead a faint smile appeared.
"Yan'er is a good boy. How can I let him bear such a crime? Don't worry, I will die of illness and will not let you bear the crime of killing your mother."
As she spoke, she swallowed the poison without hesitation. Bitterness spread on the tip of her tongue...
"Yan'er, it's your mother who is sorry for you!" Empress Xian whispered, as if she saw Yan'er as a child through the bed curtains in front of her. That innocent and lively child surrounded her, laughing and showing off his new discovery:
"Mother, look, Yan'er caught a dragonfly!"
"Mother, Yan'er can recite poems now..." Memories flooded into her mind, she slowly closed her eyes, a happy smile appearing at the corner of her mouth.
Yan'er, your mother has no regrets in this life. I hope I can be your mother in the next life to repay the debt of this life.
Baili Yan held the bottle of poison, his palms slightly sweaty, and was about to attack his mother. The porcelain bottle was almost deformed in his hands, and his face was full of contradictions and struggles.